Rituals.

Dear God, I'm sorry I have been so cruel to you. It is my belief that our lives were set in place the moment you created the universe. That our lives exists as a result of who we become or who we choose to remain, that our lives are shaped according to not so much our choices, but rather our feelings about the things that have happened. Because of this belief, I thought it was pointless to call on you and ask for things, because anything that was going to happen was already going to happen. And this is true, in it's way, but I had forgotten an important detail: You know everything. It is not just about knowing the future, knowing what choices we make. It is about knowing what we are going to ask for. It's about knowing all these things at every moment, even moments we don't percieve as having happened. Even moments we percieve has having happened a long time ago. You feel no need to act because events have been set in motion since the beginning of time. The results of o

I always thought I would love the first person who ever asked to read the things I wrote. No one ever asked. I have loved many people, but never enough to light the darkness or fill the empty spaces in my heart and mind. I don't think there is a human capable of fulfilling what I wanted. I know that I am not capable of fulfilling what I wanted. At least, no fulfillment beyond this one. I hope for better luck.